The Struggle Is Real

I’m struggling, y’all. Struggling to find inspiration. Struggling to write something worth reading. Struggling to write anything that won’t get decimated when my trigger-happy finger presses the backspace key. I can’t even think of a good Monday’s #1MinFiction prompt. Hence why there hasn’t been one for the last two weeks.

I guess I’ve been busy. I got a new job editing “science-y” articles. I’m not a “science-y” person, and the “science-y” lingo is frying my brain. Who knows if that’s the true reason for this current bout with writer’s block, but that’s the excuse I’m going with for now.

Then again, I don’t really want to use it as an excuse, because I actually like my job… A LOT. Some nights, I sit up and think, “Wow, I actually made it. I actually found a job in my field. And it has benefits. Paid vacation. Paid holiday. An optional work from home week for the Fourth of July! All that money I wasted, er, paid (am still paying) for a degree actually means something now! Shoot, maybe I’ll get my degree framed. Maybe I’ll hang it up on the wall!” And it’s nights like those when I feel most inspired to write again, and I post encouraging tidbits like this.

But the fiction has been few and far between, the poetry even less. I don’t know why that is, I don’t know why the creativity in me is so spent, especially when the ideas have all been there. It’s the writing, the writing . The turning it into an actual story or poem, a piece of art (because what are writers if not artists?) that just can’t come together for me.

Recently, I received an email from Camp NaNoWriMo. Yes, camp is starting again, and I want to use this year’s camp to find my drive for writing again. Writing something, anything, even if it’s just 100 words a day, even if those 100 words are total rubbish, at least they’ll be rubbish that I wrote and rubbish that I was confident enough about to hit publish for. And no, I won’t wait until to July to get started. Any more waiting, and I’ll just talk myself right out of doing. I’ve been talking myself out of doing a lot of things for far too long. That ends today…

6 thoughts on “The Struggle Is Real

  1. Very nice post, I try to keep writing no matter what I’m dealing with. it’s not easy trying to stay focused and get those thoughts out, but as an artist, what else are we going do? Peace!

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  2. I really enjoy reading the article…I at times get stuck or no chance to write down what’s on my mind, but I try my best to find as well as have time to write…sometimes I can talk to someone or doing something to boost the chance to write…At least you are doing something you love and it may in some way give you some ideas and move on from there

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  3. i’m literally going through the sane thing right now and it feels like you took this from my thoughts and wrote it down. I think being a creative is so hard because you go from 7 visions , then you have a really slow time. I try and look to things that inspired me to write to begin with, good luck!

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  4. I had the same problem once – a job that made use of what I was good at and that I liked, but that left me too drained to do any other writing. What worked for me was to write first thing in the morning (even though it meant getting up far too early) and, if I thought it merited it, coming back to it again after work. I’m not saying you should do the same thing, but I suppose my point is you have to find your system, the way to balance to your creative work with the work that pays the bills. Good luck with the writing!

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