“Do you have any idea why your boyfriend would want to kill himself?”
It was the third time the detective had asked her that question and Jessica still didn’t hear him. They sat at the cold, metal table at the center of the gray interrogation room. A second detective stood by the one-way window.
Jessica wrapped her arms around herself. When she had finally gotten over the shock of seeing Whitmore dead on her floor, a bullet hole in his head, she’d only had enough time to put on a pair of shorts and a tank top before emergency personnel arrived. The police tried to interview her at the scene, but she was too distracted by the men snapping photos and taking samples. Then Bruce behaved so inappropriately. He kept touching her shoulder, squeezing it, telling her everything was going to be OK. Every time he opened his mouth, a film of mucus crept up her throat, tickled the back of her tongue. Stop it! She wanted to shout. Stop acting like the concerned boyfriend. He’s dead. We did this! You. Me.
Jessica wasn’t wearing panties. She didn’t have on a bra. The draft in the room caused her skin to prickle up into goose bumps. Her nipples hardened underneath her shirt, and she felt as if they were pointing out toward the two officers like daggers. I’m not attracted to you, she tried to explain away. I wasn’t fucking when it happened. I didn’t kill him.
She wished they would quit stalling and arrest her for murder. She knee they suspected foul play the second they stepped over Whitmore’s body. She could see it playing out in their scheming minds. She was having a steamy affair with Bruce. Whitmore caught wind of it. She couldn’t keep it a secret any longer; they had to get rid of him. She was the brain, Bruce the brawn. He pulled the trigger. They staged his suicide. Then she assumed the role of the grieving girlfriend.
“Ms. Ryan.” The first detective snapped his finger in front of her face.
“She may still be in shock, Dan. That was a pretty horrific scene,” the detective by the window said.
The good cop, bad cop routine. She was under arrest.
“I’m sorry. Could you repeat the question?”
Dan sighed, shaking his blond hair over his eyes. “Why would Whitmore kill himself? Did he suffer from mental illness?”
Jessica put her fist to her mouth and coughed, but the cough was weak, originating from the front of her mouth instead of deep in her chest. Her tongue convulsed at the back of her throat, and she lightly coughed again, sounding like a child trying to fake sick to get out of going to school. Her lips curled into a smile, and to conceal the imminent laugh, she attempted a truly fake cough, and laughed instead at how pathetic she sounded. Both detectives stared at her quizzically.
“Is something funny?” Dan asked.
“No, no. It’s just—” She crossed her legs, wiped the corners of her lips as if her laugh was crumbs leftover from a dinner long forgotten. “I thought he would kill me,” she finally said.
“Has he ever threatened you?”
“No . . . It was Roger Peacock.”
“The guy in Houston?” the officer by the window asked.
Jessica shook her head. The more she spoke, the more ridiculous she sounded—the more suspicious. “I don’t know why I thought he would kill me. He’s always threatened suicide, though subtly. He would say things like if I ever left him, he would go back to that dark place he was in after his last girlfriend.”
“Leslie?” Dan interrupted.
“His final text to you said, ‘Just like Leslie.’ I’m assuming Leslie is the last girlfriend.”
Jessica nodded. “He admitted that he tried to kill himself then. But it didn’t work. I guess, I just assumed that if he ever had his heart broken again, he would give up hurting himself and hurt the woman who hurt him. He’s never said that to me directly, though.”
“Why do you think you hurt him?” Dan asked.
“I didn’t love him the way he wanted me to.”
“Meaning you cheated,” the man by the window said.
“The man you were with. I assume you two are involved.” He approached the table, pressed his palms down on the metal. He peered down at Jessica over the rim of his glasses.
“I . . . we . . .” She shivered underneath her thin clothing. She could feel her pointy, perky breasts trying to pierce through the cotton fabric of her t-shirt. She wanted to cover herself, but she feared any further gestures to hide her suspicious mannerisms would make her look guiltier.
“Look,” Dan said, “we’re not gonna judge you for what you might have been doing with the radio dj.”
“I thought his name sounded familiar! My brother-in-law listens to him all the time. Saved his marriage.”
“Jake,” Dan snapped. Jessica could only assume that he was the older and more experienced of the two. He turned back to Jessica. “I don’t care if you were screwing him, sucking him, or watching a movie. All I care about is the dead man on your doorstep and how he got there.”
“We just want to get to the bottom of this. That’s all,” Jake said, recovering the serious tone in his voice.
“The bottom is he killed himself, and he did it in front of my door to make me suffer for it.” Jessica shrugged her shoulders. “I don’t blame him.”
I hope you didn’t miss yesterday’s explosive episode. Otherwise, this post just spoiled it for you. 😉